Passion

Passion - A powerful emotion, such as love, joy, hatred, or anger. 2. a. Ardent love. b. Strong sexual desire; lust. c. The object of such love or desire.

My passion seemed to have left me for a while, I'm sure you may have noticed I have not been writing daily for quite some time.
I was going through life with this (sigh) I'm tired attitude which still now makes me feel sad. I would wake up, get Bit off to school then space out kind of sit there wondering what to do next. While not wanting to do anything at all. I would log-on to Facebook and play games instead of looking for a job ( yes, currently out of work). This became my daily ritual. I have for the past month avoided facebook and all of the applications attached to it. YES I miss you all but need to get back to being me.
It seems as though somewhere along the line I lost me. The real me that has too many passions and loves. The me that likes to stand in the middle of the road and give both good and bad to all situations. ( even when I know others don't care) The me that enjoys coloring and drawing - writing and ex specially the mee that giggles a lol when I say mee is tam and tam is mee :)
I come to realize all of this while sitting thinking why??? WHY??? why God?? can I not get all of the things I know need to be done...done.
Its not like I have a full day planned out and can't find the time to do those silly tedious task like sweeping the floor or washing the towels. OR could I ....
I noticed when I was spiraling along in my depressed BLAH gray area of life that time was just never there. I am not sure if I made it that way or if I was simply letting life slide right on by without a first let alone a second glance.
PASSION.....
I took inventory...Faith check- Well-being ( could be better) but I'm breathing, walking talking- ehh check........ Family umm this one gets complicated to me BF check ( he is AWESOME!!) Bit - doing great -check, other kids I consider mine -check also ( I never waiver from the well being of the children around me), Other family members ( they are who they will always be) I will focus on the encouraging ones and smile at all the rest -check. ummm Employment- ( sigh) not sure if I have given up or just worn out all my resources- If one more person tells me I am over qualified or I need to Finish one of my degrees I am going to SCREAMMMMM-
Over qualified - seems like that would mean I would do a great job for your company........... ?! no?? why not?? grrrrrr???? !
Finish a degree I would love to but umm seems you need a job for the money to PAY for the classes. ( Yes I tried to get financial aid) have been told everything from we have too many applicants to whispers of your not quite right for our program ( WOW that made me feel good)

I have alot of supportive people that want to encourage me in my writing, teaching even in my selling online. It was not them it was me, I want to sell online again but first I have to get motivated, selling stuff online can be hard, when you run into ugly people that try their best to empty out your bank accounts. ( sigh..again) Karma should be busy as H...L with all the scammers on the Internet. At least I hope she is.

Back to my Subject line - Passion after taking inventory I noticed my passion was / is missing. That passion to succeed in each task I do, to inspire others, make Bits life so much better than mine. The passion to play hard and live harder, to climb, hike, run all over NC <> . My passion to ...well to live - that is LIVE << class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_26">LLLL IIII VVVVV ( silent e). Not just exist, not listen to those who should but do not encourage my outrageous plans to be a writer, teacher, and most important to me an inspire other's to become AWESOME in what they do.

hummm now where could I have left this passion laying ( those who know me personally know I leave things in odd places) ...so I went looking high and low for my passion. ( kept asking what the heck does passion look like) I figured I would recognize it when I found it.
Then Just today I guess I found it - it was here all along I was just ignoring it. I was standing outside looking at this wonderful earth in its sunny glory and thought to myself ... what am I doing out here I should be inside typing away online.
and wahlah .... Passion. lets hope it stays for a while if not forever. =^.^= puurrrr :)

Be Inspired

Be Inspired

Think it
Do it
Type a thought or three
Like the clouds be free

Feel the happiness
Have a little silliness
Be quite and still
Inspiration you will feel

Don't let others words discourage
Instead find someone to encourage
There will always be a tomorrow
Don't let others be your sorrow

You are really never alone
Every one at one time moans and groans
Failure is a mistake learned
A lesson earned

Smile and be joyful
Life can be so beautiful
Don't worry what others think
They wlll only make your heart sink

Be inspired, encouraged, empowered
To be you- no matter who you are
Life is to short for dread
Get that silliness out of your head

I know you are awesome and great
I wrote this so very late
What I think may not matter to you
What is important is what it may make you do.
mee- 09/10 <3

a few poems and ponders

You!

In the darkness I ponder you
Knowing your beauty is all around
Wanting you to hold my hand

Only sharing my true thoughts with a few
Keeping feet on solid ground
Knowing you created everything from Sun to sand

My heart is happy in your shining hope
My soul warmed in my lasting faith
Spirt aglow in the love for all

Praying you will help us all cope
Keeping my mind from evil, safe
You are the one, three and all
taw 8/8/10

The wind whispers to me
Telling me great stories of the past
The sun shines warmly on me
Telling me your love will last
Birds chirp out in song
Telling me right here is where I belong.
taw 8/8/10

BF

Your hand touches me
A chill climbs my back
Your eyes thrill me
Walking beside you
Humbles me in your goodness
I enjoy your jokes
Smile when I think of you
Could spend all day listening to you
Talking, Conversing, debating
You are you
To me this makes you awesome
Good to others
Making me want to be better
You are you
This is what I like about you.

Child Grown!

My Baby is all but grown
I am so proud of her
The way she handles life
Treats others and herself
Every achievement she completes
Even the ones she only tries
She is smart and funny
Caring and sweet
Helping others that she meets
I will always love her
No matter what
So very proud of her
That's what this is all about
taw 8/8/10 <3 B

Keep it simple

Keep it simple

do not worry about things you have no control over.

Do your best to keep a positive attitude.

Help those who want help. Let those who don't learn the hard way.

Keep your beliefs, hold them dear.

When all is said and done- Faith and hope will carry you where you need to be.

taw 6/10


Simple

Spend a day in simplicity
No worries, no rushing
No need to buy expensive objects

Relax instantly
Go hiking, picnicing or just simple porch sitting
Don't worry about the cell phone neglects

Peer upon the sky above
Watch the birds and bees flying by
Play a silly game of I spy, checkers or cards

Spend it with those you love
Sit back and let out a relaxing sigh
Keep it simple and you'll have fun by the loads
taw 6/10